Woke up screaming in the middle of the night, waking up the hubby.

Will the boogie nightmares ever stop?

To those who are parents, try not to damage to your kids when their young. Because no matter how old they are and how far they run away and much they try to forget, the nightmares still come back haunting at night.

:(

The baby sister is coming back home!

The baby sister is coming home tomorrow. I'm excited. Can't wait to see her. Can't wait to see little Roomba (dear little Roomba, the previous vacuum cleaner has packed his bags and moved into the store room to make room for you, I think he was glad for the early retirement).

5 months have passed so fast. I thought a lot of things would have changed after the 5 months. Some things have changed, though it's not the things I expected.

Somebody recently asked me, "Where do you see yourself in 10 years?" Honestly I don't know. Because I learned from the previous 10 years of life that no matter how much you plan, not everything goes according to plan. And even if it does and you get what you want, it not necessary makes you happy in the end. So now, I don't think about myself in 10 years time. I'm going to let life tell me about it along the way.

Anyway, I'm so excited about meeting the baby sister tomorrow! And also the future baby brother-in-law. And watching what the scary Uncle Ninian is going to to do to the poor boy. Uncle Ninian is a scary man from England who eats little boys and girls for dinner (Just in case you're reading this Uncle Ninian, I still love and adore you and you are a wonderful wonderful uncle. Please don't eat me after reading this).

If anything interesting happens I shall remember to report it here ASAP.

:)

This week I learned

That life can be fun. It should be fun.

That there's always a positive side to everything. If you are willing open your eyes wider, you just might see it. So the question is, are you willing?

That there is always ways to improve things. You just have to remember to look for it.

That you should like what you're doing. If not, life is too short to not have fun.

That when faced with a difficult situation, instead of stressing out about it, learn ways to handle it.

That it's always important to keep an open mind. Some people like oranges, some people like apples. And that's okay.

That it's good to question everything. You need to understand what you're doing. How can you believe in something you don't understand.

That somehow, things will work out fine. What's important is that you believe it will.

That even though you're an adult, it's good to have childlike wonder where everything in the world fascinates you.

That smiling is so important. It can light up the whole room.

That you should live life according to what you believe in. And not what others expect you to.

That love is loving that person for who he is and not who you want him to be. He may not love you the way you want him to, what's important is that he still loves you in his own way.

And that having someone from a country where they drive on the opposite side of the road, drive you from Penang Road to Burmah Road to Macalister Road during peak hour, can be the most terrifying yet the most exhilarating ride ever.

:)

The weekly update

Hello, this time for my weekly post again. I've been so busy lately that I have to make a conscious effort to remember my little bloggy. Anyway, random stuff which are just going to randomly come out from my head.



My roomba is coming home soon. (Oh, and so is the sister). Can't wait. Yay yay....

Brought the adorable guy with rosy checks to try dim sum yesterday. The old aunties serving dim sum there were so fascinated by him. One old auntie went on and on excitedly in Hokkien telling us, "Wah.... this one is so handsome. Usually these white men have nice looking faces but their bellies are soooo big. This one has a nice looking face and no big belly! Handsome loh. He's going to become my godson."

For a while, I was facing a book starvation. I'm seriously addicted to books nowadays. So desperate that I dug out old books I bought long ago, like Brinsinger which is Part 3 of the Eragon series. I used to love Eragon but after reading books about real people living through the Cultural Revolution in China and the Taliban era in Afghanistan, I'm sorry but I can no longer read a book about elves and humans and dragons at war. Just seems too lame in comparison.

And I'm really looking forward to the break in October. I need to get out of this little island, leave all the problems behind and go a little crazy with friends, have just enough drinks to make the world seem so wonderful and beautiful, but not too many until my tongue starts developing a mind of its own saying things it shouldn't be saying. I just need to give the gray cells a break before they shut down.

Still thinking about a tattoo. Might be one of my phases...

And dearest sister, before you start sulking about how the Roomba seems more important than you, of course I'm looking forward to seeing home. I'm so looking forward to seeing how Uncle Ninian is going to interview your boy where the question of the day would be, "How much redder can Genny's face become?". *waiting in evil gleeful anticipation*

Falling Leaves

Weekend was great. Rested for 4 days. Met up with the fish. Lunch and dinner with a leng chai with rosy cheeks. Finished an awesome book.

I really do love this book. Thank you Shu-Yin for lending it to me. Falling Leaves is a true story of an unwanted Chinese daughter, how she had nothing and became something in life. Unlike the author in Wild Swans who endured the Cultural Revolution in China, the author of this book fled from China before the Communist took over. However, her childhood was so sad and I was touched by the story of her life. There were some parts of the book which reminded me a little about my own boogie family and I can totally relate to the pain she felt during the last chapter. I love the beautiful Chinese proverbs she used in each chapter which described what she was going through so well.

I guess there are a lot of boogie families out there huh. This book is a wonderful read. :)

A milestone

A manager once told, being a manager is a tough job. You no longer only  have to worry about what you have to do, you have to worry about all the people you managed. You'll constantly have a million things you'll need to do. A manager's job is lead the team, energize the team, provide a vision of the team, to always make sure the team is moving forward. A manager's job to ensure their engineers are happy, to get what they need to work efficiently and to lead their career growth. A manager's job is to protect their engineers, to filter all the shit that comes from the top, so that engineers are free to concentrate on their work, free from unnecessary distractions. A manager's job is make sure the engineers feel recognized and appreciated. A manager's job is to make sure that all hell breaks lose, he must still must remain feet firmly on the ground, that even when everybody is unhappy, he still must smile.

However, who makes sure the managers get recognized and appreciated? When engineers come and pour out their troubles to their manager, who does the manager go to pour out the troubles of his own heart?

So then I asked that manager, why do you want to be a manager then? His answer, it's the satisfaction of seeing your engineers grow and achieve and hoping that you helped to play small role in making that happen.

Today is CC. Today is a milestone of me. My first CC in a new role. A time when all managers bow their heads in prayer and say, "Oh God, please let everything be okay".

I understand more what a manager goes through now. All things that happen behind the scenes. So to a particular manager out there, I want to say a huge thank you. Whatever I have achieved so far in my career, I owe a big part to you.

And to the engineers who have worked so hard as a team, a huge thank you. I'm extremely proud of the team and I make no effort to hide that from anybody I can tell.

I know friends think I'm crazy for working even when I'm holiday. Well, I don't see my job as just a job. I see it as a career full of potential oppurtunies (erm, I can tell you this because I'm calmer after CC. Ask me again while I'm in the middle of hell and I may give you a different answer). After working so hard, it makes me appreaciate simple things like sitting in Starbucks right now on a Friday morning.

Now I just need to hibernate for a few days to have strength for a whole cycle of new madness. And I forsee a hell lot of madness coming. :)

Happy happy happy

For some reason, I'm not absorbed in work today. For some reason, I'm a little more relaxed today, a little more happier than usual.

Can't decide whether it's because....

it's Friday today,

or that I didn't attend a single meeting today (if you don't count the interview which I left after 15 minutes),

or that the long raya weekend is just next week (it's so close I can almost smell it!!!),

or that next week I'm going to meet the fish from China,

or that I'm going to be fetching an adorable guy with rosy checks from the airport,

or that I'm looking forward to the trip at the end of the month to have too many drinks and talk nonsense with the girls (and ever since one of them said she's going to get a tattoo, I'm soooooo tempted to get one as well),

or that I'm looking so so so forward to seeing my new Roomba at the end of the month (oh, I'm looking forward to seeing you too Genny, because you'll be bringing my precious Roombaaaaaa!~~).

Whatever the reason, the weekend is almost here. Have a good one!~~~

:)

Today

Today I have the right to blog at work

Today I have the right to come to work at whatever time I want

Today I have the right to not reply your emails

Today I have the right to ignore any SPRs, and I don't care whether you are a platinum customer leh, or gold customer leh or silver customer.

Today I have the right to cancel all my meetings

Today I have the right not to talk to you

Today I have to right not to answer you on communicator

Today I have the right to do anything I want to do

Because today, I'm on leave. And I'm taking a day off so that I can finish my work in peace.
Either that, my leave burns this week.

:)