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Every manager will one day ask themselves, why the hell am I choosing the management path? You get all the pressure coming from the top, defending your team. Then the very people you defend think you suck.

There are those that make you beam with pride and joy making you feel happy that you got to play a role in their growth. And there are those whom you try to do what's best but end up always being the bad guy in their eyes.

Every manager carries heartache and disappointment. But we still smile on the outside because it's our job to keep the team going. We swallow it and move on.

However, at home I'm no longer required to smile about my own personal problems if I don't feel like it. I'm logging off from the world for a while, from friends and family.

I appreciate that friends and family try to reach me and I know it seems like I'm shutting everybody out. But from how I grew up, I'm not used to going to people with my problems. I've learned to handle them myself.