I have made it through the first two days of CNY. More "When are you going to have a baby?" questions and "You have put on weight" remarks. I hate CNY.
It's weird having to give out angpows instead of receiving them this year. A reminder that I'm getting older and turning into one of them "aunties".
I always thought that when I turned into an "auntie" I would automatically know how to act like one. I would know how tell children, "Say Gong Xi Fa Chai before I give you an angpow" or insist that they call me "Auntie Mindy". But I found myself quiet, clueless and out of place. I definitely do not feel like I'm one of the "aunties" yet.
It's not over yet. More CNY visiting and reunions this weekend, this time with my complicated side of the family. Time to start practicing the art of fake smiling and master the skill of avoiding awkward questions.
Why oh why must CNY be 15 days loooonnnnnggg? I wish I could dig a hole and hide in it until CNY is over.
Sigh... I hate CNY.
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
The Chinese who hates Chinese New Year
Posted by Mindy at 5:59 PM
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The next time someone asks you the baby question, answer back "After you have another one". The next time someone says you've grown fat, answer back "so have you!". :)
haha.. next time i'll do that. :P
I have always loved that CNY lasts for 15 days :)
Although I'll be frank and admit that I may change my mind when I've got to start giving out ang pows. :P
If it helps any... I'm Chinese and not married (ie. I don't even have to give out angpows, or have ppl ask me about babies), but I don't like CNY too!! Wouldn't say "Hate" tho, just dislike.
In fact, I hate my life and often wish I were dead, including praying for a freak accident when I'm on planes such that everyone but me would survive. I won't elaborate why... My family's good, it's just me. Yet who would've guessed, hey? I'm pretty good at fake smiles too :)
Anyway, the point is, you're not that alone. It's ok to hate stuff. You do have great friends, tho. One can't have everything in life. ;)
It's always nice to know that there's someone out there who doesn't like CNY. Makes me feel like I'm not a freak.
Also, Soo Huey, you are probably the highest achiever among us. You are living THE life. So yes, who would have guessed? :)
But I know that what is on the surface is not always what is truly inside. Some of us just have a lot of our own demons inside to fight. I do not know what you facing inside, but I do understand what it is like to have two sides of life, the good and the bad and having to pretend that everything is good and merry. But there are still a lot of good in life so hopefully you'll be fine. :)
Also, same thing back to you, you have lots of great friends too!~ And you already have achieved so much. :)
This book helped me during the darkest point of my life. It was also the first book I've read after years of not reading.
Title: The Cosmic Ordering Service: A Guide to Realizing Your Dreams
Author: Barbel Mohr
ISBN-13: 978-1571742728
Not many find this book believable. You will find its fair share of skeptics on Amazon. But during the darkest point of my life when I was all alone, I could feel my guardian angel by my side helping me through. So, I choose to believe.
I hope that it will be as much help to you as it had been for me.
:)
Mun Yi, Will I still need the book if I've already got a fat yellow man from digi?
Mindy,
How can you call me the highest achiever?? Many of you are building much more meaningful lives and I'm still barely making ends meet, with no savings whatsoever -- Not that this bothers me, but I think others are achieving in their own way, so your statement is unjustified.
I wouldn't say I'm living THE life. I think I've been lucky. Things just kinda worked out the way they have... (MunYi, I believe in guardian angels too ;))
Life is a grand facade,
The wall, it keeps demons inside,
The wall, it hides them from view.
Trapped demons pushed in,
fight back stronger with anger,
They haunt! They haunt!
So the man goes to labour.
"What magnificence!" exclaims fame,
"What grandeur!" exclaims fortune,
The man smiles for he cannot but labour,
Pushing in, pushing in,
Until there is no more...
I'll be fine; and so will you. :)
Soo Huey: Haha. I always have the opinion that an extra hand doesn't hurt.
I hope that you will find the right path to feel whole again like I did when I took one wrong turn after another.
:)
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